for a while there have been some buzzing in the air, and just a few days ago I got the news it was sadly true.

I give my thoughts to a person I dont personally know, but know by word
a yogi in my country that have given many people joy & health, have inspired a lot of yogis & yoginis both at his own studio but also at retreats & festivals,
and for many years have been passionate about his yoga and his new better life.

I remember many years ago seeing him standing on the stairs at the exit from the subway giving flyers to everyone, I remember I thought he was a funny fanatic nicely weird man ha ha.
I am not sure when this was, I think probably in my early yogic years, and I had really not that much knowledge about other forns and yoga philosophy, for me then more just a curious feeling about something new and that I liked the way my physical body felt doing it.

we have had a few yoga practitioners comming to my studio lately that used to go to his place, I didnt really think to much about until I heard another person who came to us in another arend mentioning something how she was sad since she used to do her yoga with him, but now that place was just closed with no further info.
she didnt want to talk about it since talking behind someones back is not nice
I asked a teacher at my place wich teaches the same yoga form if she had heard anything about this? she said she had a new student from his place at her class, and she was gonna ask her.
it is good to know so knowing also how to react if someone comes from there, since it easily starts to come rumours about things

then in a just few days it all came out more & less "officially" I guess.
sadly his former life had caught up with him and it has gone so far that he is actually letting his dear studio go..
the good in all this tradegy is that he knows his dilemma and is getting help for it.

it feels really sad to hear that this yogic Icon has "lost the battle" and unfortunatly letting go of his passion..
I just hope he will win the fight for good this time and come back to inspire & teach again! I am sure many of his students/participants will wellcome him back with open arms to lead them further in their yogic journeys!
time will tell!

good luck!

I am not sure wether it depends on my mood, the participants mood, the phase I am in at the moment in life or just the fact I am developing but..
some classes I teach I feel more of a spiritual serenety,
it just feels calm and focused, I almost feel like doing meditiation on my own in the middle of the class ha ha or just enjoy the feeling.
it is a wonderful feeling, and it seams I get it more & more often..

I have an idea though that I am gonna try one or a few classes next term. 

okey, sure it comes most in classes with people who have some experience with me as their teacher, and classes with participants who comes more regurlary or when people start to find thier breath even in the transitions between their asanas.. because it is SO often that people want to much in their asanas and start to tension up their whole physical body and all the explosive muscles, and also in many cases then aswell start to come further up both with their awarnes towards the surface and also their breath up in the chest.
so this make them also start to mentally switch over to a more stressed mood..
like a bad circle wich many times starts with a competetive feeling or the fact that they loose control of their yogic breath.

..and then when releasing their asana they have a tendensy to loose inner awareness and just "take a breather" and becomes more "out there" while switching over to savasana for relaxation & collecting in between..
usually with more experience, or in some cases when you start to get over that edge when you realize it all comes more together when NOT forcing and straining your self, also then it is easier to remain inner awarness and a yogic breath all thru the class, and afterwards an even higher rewarding feeling : )

of course my mood and energies afects the participants in the class, but I think also the opposit way sometimes.
so remember positive thinking, it can be just to respect your fellow yoga practitioners & your yoga teacher.
many things affects in various ways, just talking to much before a yoga class with all and everyone is not allways the best preparation, even if you are just kind and a social kind of person : )

the yogic journey is truly long, continues & interesting.
sometimes ups & downs, sometimes just "same same" and sometimes new things/thoughts/feelings/understandings appears..
lovely!

yesterday the 6th of december Swami Satyananda Saraswati took mahaSamadhi in India. since 1988 when he decided to leave the ashram & schools he had build up [the great & famous Bihar Schhol of Yoga] to one of his disciples, he had lived as Paramahamsa Sannyasin ["supreme renouncation, dedicated fully to spiritual practice].
in Sweden we have some places teaching "his tradtition", probably most famous is Satyananda Yogacenter at Odenplan in Stockholm and you also have Gävle Yogaskola with Matthias..

Satyananda was one of Swami Sivanandas disciples, some say he is one of the most strict disciples and have continued in his fotsteps. the same Sivananda wich is also the guru of swami vishnu-devananda who later founded "Sivananda Yoga"

Paramahamsa Satyananda Saraswati has written many books, and they are highly apprichiated around the world by yogis of many schools & traditions, amongst them the one often called as "the bible of hatha yoga" = Asana pranayama mudra bandha

he also developed the tradition of yoga nidra, wich of course he also wrote a book about.

earlier this year another great yogi Patthabi Jois [founder of ashtanga vinyasa] also past away. so today not to many of the older great yogis remains..
I guess it will take a while until some more yogis with "that little extra" will appear, or perhaps they will try to be more in the background instead of in the front. and that makes it of course harder to find them he he.

today there are soooo many swami's everywhere and actualy it is quit hard to know theese days [sadly] wich are more businessmen and wich are more passionat in inspiering others, teach others and to "spread the knowledge of yoga".. also in the stage of life we have on earth right now I guess it is actually almost impossible to help other without any money so you have to charge higher & higher for your service or knowledge..

a dream for many I guess at least for me is to have a place that is all payed for, you can teach for small sums of money and still survive, never have any stress about survival, getting money for your rent and food. but not to many are there, and some who are then comes to a state that they then want more and build a new place etc and soon it is all business again...

this is of course natural in the commersial world we are living in I guess..

bless and a lot of apprichiation to the great Swami Satyananda Saraswati who has given many individuls inspiration & knowledge in their yogic journey.

AUM Shanti, shanti, shantíi

so it has finally come...

today it actually felt like the first winterday,
it was below zero [celcius] yesterday evening already.

and when I woke up today all the cars, the grass & the trees outside my building had frost on them.

but.. it was a beautiful first winterday, since the sun had also found it's way to our part of the world : )
so the air felt really swedishly northern fresh, and I decided to walk with the dogs to buddha spa today [70 minutes in a quit okey walking pace].
even at that time wich was 1pm it was still frost on the grass etc, so everything felt more bright, you could almost right away feel the energy within boost up a bit.
so also now in the evening I feel tired in a good way since got some excersize, fresh air & sunshine..

tomorrow is my day off, but tomorrow I will try to fix everything I need to or at least all things I can do to already prepare for next year with my classes, then tmetable also for the yogastudio at buddha spa, do some paperwork, pay bills, start to fill in the VSA application for India etc. etc.

so hopefully then I will feel more relaxed mentally again, but already feeling more calm after a few ays now with outdoor walking and, some light yoga practice and a few minutes on my backbender he he.
I thinkt though unfortunatly that I need to go and see the choropractor for my wrist, since it still hurts when putting weight on it in many asanas..
I know this bodypart i fragile and it can take long time to "heal" but still, this is just irritating right now, and need to be fixed before christmas..
after showing chakrasana on a class the other day it felt really bad, so.. hm..  hopefully something is just "stuck" or so..

yesterday was a quit full day, it started with of course waking up etc.
then I walked from home to buddha spa wich takes about one hour, there I did a light yoga stretch thing and some relaxation in savasana.!
after that I got a 1hour massage from my buddha partner, lovely!

I continued the day with a meeting at a café nearby then my mum came by with some Fakes [φακές] wich is a traditional greek farmers food I guess, a green lentil soup.
my mum does the best one!
so we bought some greek bread at a baker at the indoor market nearby.

then I had my shift staying at the studio before teaching a 105 minute hatha/sivananda class at 7.15pm.
when class was over I realized A didn't bring the rest of the fakes home, so I invited the few participants who hadn't already left to join me for some nice greek food.
a very relaxed & pleasent moment I felt and apprichiated since they all liked the food a lot.
I think the small touch when you drip some redwine vinegar on it makes it extra delightful : )

it would be so lovely if you had a small kitchen so once now and then you can treat your yogis & yoginis for some nice veggie food after classes.

he he many think I am a christmas hater but actually I kind of like it. just that in the phase of my life right now have no real tradition in it so there is no point of doing the whole christams thing. for me this holiday is about traditions so many times I have been abroad on holiday this time and probably this year aswell.
that is if everything goes as planned and I find tickets.

today I saw this santa claus in a smaller "mall" that sat on a couch talking to children and also they got to write him a wish.
he felt so natural to a santa, he was calm, older and slow in his movements and great with the kids who was many of them look at him with big eyes and told him things and also many parents took photos of santa & their child with their mobile phones.

nice!

earlier today I had a hatahyoga class as usual on sundays at "the gym", today was kind of full almost with 27 participants, fun!
they had some "bring your friend weekend" so a few new guests came to be inspired perhaps he he.
then of on a 1h walk in the today for once great autumn weather : )

after a long friday that started 06.45 am with a hatha yoga class, then some paperwork was at the studio 12-15 when we were  open, then at 5pm I had a "siam" treatment to give to a customer.. back at home about 20.00
and then and semi long saturday at buddha spa today tha started with a sligtly caotic morning at home, then a 105 minute hatha/sivandan class that became a 2h class because I had forgotten to bring anything to see the time on. confused?!?! ha ha
on my way home I called my favourite local malaysian wok place, they are so kind even though they close at 7pm today they stayed there and waited until 10 past when I came, I had ordered a speciela vegitarian nasi goreng with extra nuts & pineapple.

I just love it!

then back to my place relaxing in the livingroom eating and watching tv and searching for air tickets.

now of to bed up at 09am tomorrow to teach a yogaclass at 10.30

today was my day of in a regular week, but my collegue/buddha partner was sick so I took the slot at the studio of course.

today thursday is "kids yoga" time as usual, I think it is great that they come and learn slowly in a playful way. I decided today that I would bring something to this "event", so when they came before class today the got to see a blooming tea, I had put a pot on a high chair in the middle of the studio, in it was  "fairytail Lilly" tea flowerball. so when all had changed and so they came around the glas tea pot and I poured in the hot water. they were quit excited to se this tea flower slowly first open up and then also see the whit lilly rise up from the tea leaves.

our flowers are made of white tea, so relly nice ones.
and of course they all got to taste the tea when done.
one girl was so funny she insisted on cold water so she wouldnt burn her mouth, then she loudly explained to us that "japanese & chinese teas are calming our soul"

somehow we came into the subject of what their names came from so during their 1 hour yoga class I searched a name site to see their names origin. then I wrote their name and the country of its origin on small pink heart shaped post it notes, I think almost all of them put their on their t-shirts ha ha. and also they started "I am the queen of England or Greece or what ever their country was".

today also they had new t-shirts that they had designed themselves!
the teacher had invited them to her house last weekend to "print their on t-shirts" so they all made one with colours & text etc.

I quit enjoy having them there as long as they are not overenergetic, restless and also TO loud. then I become the more serious owner and they really listen to me he he. 
[since we have a ayurvedic therapeut there at the same time ha ha].

one thing really I like with children is the possibilities to learn and listen without prejudice, they are not yet formed by the soceity that much.
and also you can see they really want to learn and are amazed of the smallest things.
great!